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I'm going to York University to take Anthropology, I'm in a second year course in my first year and it will be the study of Media & Culture. I will be a buzzeh bee!

It was nightfall, I was being told a story and watching it unfold like a narrative in some sort of comic book film. I was looking at a daycare/school and a toddler had been chosen to become a "clown child" it was a little girl. A demon was sent out to test the child and turn her, the task was to puppet the little girl to follow the demon around the school until the essence of the demon had fused itself inside the child, turning the little one into a possessed cannibal, a little game hide and seek! At first it was all fun and games for the demoness until the child had grabbed onto the demon's leg. what that meant is not only is the child going to change to become a "clown child" where her face alters to that of a clown and she begins to eat people, she also eats the demon so the clown child is gifted and smarter than the usual.

I become a character for I found out that the little girl had been left alone in the school or was lost and I had to look for her for I cared a great deal for the sweetheart. I walked into a room to see the little one taking a chef's knife to the one sent to change her. The clown child had cut the shape of a mushroom out of her abdomen and began ripping out the demons insides until she reached the heart devouring it. I wasn't afraid. Instead I approached the deamoness with sadness and began screaming how do you change the girl back. "A dreamer's state even your mother can do it" can show me the way so by trancing out someone until they can tell me the answers I need.

*forgive me I don't care about punctuation I'm still waking up*

I noticed the little girl covered in blood screaming " I don't want to do this" she didn't want to hurt me so I take the little girls hand and run off to find someone. The little girl lets go of my hand and slowly runs back to the school. I just kept running to find someone. I make it to a crossroads when a speedy car drives by and I jump inside informing them of what's going on they were heroes like batman but not. We made it back to the school to find the girl had chained herself in the building with another little boy I was worried was she trying to create an army? I asked the boy if he was ok he had a autistic type of mind and said it's fine everyone likes me. So he didn't have the capability to change he was there to keep the real girl in tact. the girl was already kicking down the glass doors and could almost run free. I told her I missed her and I am looking for her safe return.

Many things happened...

1. I was being attacked by others while protecting & defending people

2. I had a dream that I woke up to check my phone application which shows me places in Germany, 2 times I checked it was black...the 3rd time I glance at it there is a dimly lit graveyard in Germany and a spirit flashes white on the screen. He huffs and breathes heavily in my left ear the flash is gone shortly after he yells. In my mind I'm scared but searching for the spirit again waking Benjamin up to help me find proof of his ghostly existence.

I've already been looking forward to this since after my birthday the 6th of December. Changes have come in the indescribable way that they do and it has had deep effect on my stance. I've had this image come to my mind of my body floating in deep space where the stars change into desolate, dry, infertile land cracked with black space peaking through. I am either standing or lying in a fetal position trying to cope and create a pathway by molding the stars into some sort of roadway that leads to my better future.

On December 17th I was laid off. How depressing...just before I go home for the holidays to visit family and friends my job which I really did love let me go. I was really ill from boxing all day and all night. All of my energy was spent on lifting heavy things and from that I caught an illness. Bad timing I guess. I've been super stressed out from work and the move to the new condo that it's given me this embarrassing change and shortfall.

I'll be leaving to reach Saskatoon, Saskatchewan then driving down to P.A. on December 24th, spending Christmas with my father and step family. I'll get some days in with my P.A. crew then back to Toronto to look for a different job and quite possibly a different life altogether.

Hey everyone!

I'm just writing this to inform the peeps I'm headed home for the holidays!!! YAAAAAY! Starting December 24th I will have days off Until January 4th, so I thought I'll talk to my folks to get some help to come home. Although how it will probably happen is I'll get a flight to Saskatoon, in which case all of my saskatoon peeps I'll hopefully get to see! Then a drive down to Prince Albert Saskatchewan, where I'll hopefully get to see all of my friends and family there as well!

Possible problems with this are I think my dad would want me to stay with them in PA and not go back home to Flon, which is sad...but if there is a way...maybe we can figure that out!

Let's talk...!

I'll forward this via everyone's email within the area to let them know what's up to make sure I get a chance to give you a hug before returning to the cityscape!

My Love is with you,

Paige

PS~ today I gotz birfday cake!

I have some temporary work for those who can help us out at Tinlids, you will be paid $15/hour. The show will be at the CNE at the Queen Elizabeth building. I will only be in need of 3 people.

Monday 23rd: from 1PM we just need help to set up for a show.

Tuesday 24th: from 10AM till 4PM

Wednesday 25th: from 10AM till we close

This is a job that requires heavy lifting and a fair amount of exercise so only serious inquiries only. I just want to thank all of those who helped us out for the previous shows and a great big thank you to those who want to help out for this session!

I take a step outside a doorway and notice a black wasp trying to escape a plastic bag, I think I'll trap that wasp and save myself from possibly getting attacked. Unfortunately the wasp escapes and lands on the top of my skull, trapping me in place with a sight that was of a worm~like body with white teeth~shaped feet that dug into it's body before it stings. I felt a black stinger enter. I awaken slightly to lucid states which made me slightly tremor not in fear, but it was just how my body reacted to the feeling of the stinger going through bone and inside cranial tissue.

This was a dream. I woke up without harm and yet I felt changed somehow.

This dream had me slightly afraid, I was helping what I thought was a good cause by joining forces with spirits who would tell me my instructions from a spirit bound house. I did my best to help the cause of abolishing the evils of our world by my actions and each and every time I would find that it wasn't enough. My last orders were to kill a person who came under powers of a dark nature, I spoke with the spirits and said that I couldn't kill him for this person had stronger powers than I had. The spirit house then set on fire and began to burn to the ground, it's tiny windows spilling out flames while the spirits voice cried out that I was a "Hell Burner" I was confused so I ran down a winding stair to where that black magician was and tried to plead with him to stop what he was doing...I knew I was powerless because the man was more united with his powers for he was far older than I was and developed a stronger sense of what he could do. He levitated silver rings in my direction and I screamed out "NO!" for those rings would kill you by skinning the flesh off of your bones based on your desire for them. I hid my hands away and coward while he wandered a group of unsuspecting people. One woman was an obvious glutton with a need for greed so she wound up dying in such a manner that was too horrific for the dream to allow me to see...the dream changes to something else!

Underworld was a fantastic show I had definitely no complaints about it..Giant white balloons would be thrown on the crowd to bounce around during born slippy while Karl Hyde head banged in a mini digital camera with a smile on his face! I met Alex there whom I always meet at really cool events which is awesome and he introduced me to Amber she seemed pretty cool, but then 2 really happy french guys approached me! They liked my shirt saying Pardon my french with a picture of french fries on it! Renee & Jean Francis! They came from Montreal and I actually plan on hanging out with these guys when I go there next vacation time I get!

Anywho the sad part of the nights events is that later on in the evening I started to get feverish again, my strep throat was bothering me so I had to miss work today to go to the doctors. I've had this for almost a month now with slow workings on the doctors part I hope now that I will get better from this because it's just too much to bear with! I'll be going back to work tomorrow with an early nights rest and hope for the best.

I woke early for I had to go over to Vanessa's to get a picture of plain Jane me for this competition she was entering, it was a before shot for my transition into a post modern assassin~! I later did the work thing and stressed out I lived through it as best as I could, there's a lot to be done!!! }:s

Once work was done at 5PM I set off to the bus stop where I ran into a girl named Celina,I've seen her once before on the bus we did this stalemate "should I talk to her" thing the last time we met, and it would have happened again if I didn't stop it by the time Jeanelle and I sat down on the subway car and asked her to sit with us! I found out a bit about her and thought I'd like to get to know her more, but BEFORE all that happened I got a phone call from Ben telling me he surprisingly won a contest he entered to see Underworld, so off we go this evening to see them!!! It was so strange a couple of days ago I had seen their ad in the eyeweekly or NOW and thought I like their music I wonder what they are like live...!

I met Benjamin at Bloor subway station as we usually like to walk home on nice days and check out the little shops on the way home. As we were walking home 1 really cool thing happened and 1 really interesting interaction with a random person happened... first the really cool thing! I was walking along when I noticed a tiny little body flying right towards me, a ladybug landed on my boob and proceeded to crawl around, I saved him from falling off and he danced on my pinky finger then flew off in the clouds! it was beautiful! Ben had to steer me around because I kept my eyes on him the entire time! Then as we made it to Wellesley Street some guy, although clean looking approached us not for money but for some chewing gum, LOL my day reminded Benjamin of an Underworld video because of it's flow!